W is for double victory

I passed chemistry (I've got an C!), that's the first victory. The second thing is that I reached my first goal weight. I'm officially weighting 110 pounds. I gave myself a spa treatment as a gift.
In the next post I'll tell you how did I manage to lose all that weight in so little time.

Stay strong
Think thin
Be thin

Lila Thorne

12 hours

In less then 12 hours I'll have to do my chemistry exam. I'm on a age of having a nervous meltdown. If I fail I'll have to repeat the whole second year of medicine high school. Oh shit.

I came here so I could take a break .

I want to share with you one of my favourite songs.

Chemistry Is Evil

I've done some house work again, but not so much as the day before. My mother let me go on a coffee with my bf M. and I was so happy. I didn't see him 10 days and I used to see him everyday. We are together for a year now. But my post isn't about that.
When I got home I ate and begun studying.
I mean I studied for 6 hours and didn't finish it. I have to know it all if I want to pass the year and yeah by tomorrow.
I'm sick of it.
The good thing is I've lost over a pound , yeah I'm 112.2 pounds right now.
I'll post tomorrow to say If I passed chemistry or not.
Love you all , you make me feel not so alone on this path to perfection.

Stay strong
Think thin
Be thin!

Lila Thorne

Smart play

Yesterday was amazing. I was in a mood of working around the house and it gave me some good (amazing) results.
The story:
My mother was on work (she doesn't have a full time job, just works with some magazine papers) and she told me to cook something for my sisters ( btw they are older from me 5 and 7 years). I made them a lot of food (didn't try anything that I cooked, I know it's good)and then I couldn't stop. I did the dishes and washed our clothes, just worked around the house.
I ate a little for lunch ( 74 kcal ). Drank coffee and I have to say I ate some fruits after that (100kcal) .
My mother came home and saw that the house was clean and she was so proud of me.
And when she is proud of me she doesn't want to control me ( how much I eat , how much I study ,...)
I made her diner and I ate (watermelon - I ate about 31.5 kcal)
Then I went to sleep.
Today I woke up and gone right to the scale. I lost over 3 pounds. I was in shock.

Review: If you work around the house you'll make your family happy, they wont control you and you'll end up loosing weight.



Stay strong
Think thin
Be thin

Lila Thorne

Yesterdays breakdown

In 3 days I will know if I passed my school year or not. I was so stressed with learning chemistry and mat, so I was eating like a maniac and wasn't on any program.
Yesterday I had a wake up call from Ana (metaphor).
I must go on some intake plan and because my stress isn't going to get any better I decided to eat 500kcal a day until 20th august .
When I pass chemistry I'll go on Gone 3000 (20th to 26th, including 26th) and if I pass mat I'll go on Fading week until September ( 5 days).
When September starts I'll have a 5 day preparation diet that means I'll have an intake of 500kcal and will exercise a little.
Then when the new school week starts I'm starting something new.
It's a surprise.
HINT: It's more than a diet.

Gone from my point of view

I love your skin oh so white
I love your touch cold as ice
And I love every single tear you cry
I just love the way your losing your life

Whoooo, my baby how beautiful you are
And whoa my darling completely torn apart
You're gone with the sin my baby
And beautiful you are
So gone with the sin my darling

I adore the despair in your eyes
I worship your lips once red as wine
And I crave for your scent sending shivers down my spine
And I just love the way you're running out of life

I always loved this song , and before I didn't know why , but now I know that this words are for girls like us , girls that are literally losing their life's.
The words say it all , pale , cold, torn apart, and finally beautiful .
Is it just me or is this song really made for us? I don't know, but I can tell you this , Who even cares , it's a pretty song .